It’s My Birthday Weekend & A Freebie!


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Good morning/afternoon/evening everyone! How are you? I am stoked (or at least I want to be) because with everything going on with my family life and such, today, I plan on doing something other than sulking. Tomorrow (April 3rd) is my birthday, and with my anxiety/depression issues, my daughter and I are celebrating my birthday a day early. And that is because if I don’t get to do anything the day of, at least I have done something the day before.

Monday, I am going with my mother who is having surgery done. I hope everything goes well with that. I can’t begin to say what else is going on, because I’m still trying to wrap my head around it. You know when one thing happens, five more and another five followed. Those things had occasionally affected my mental health, and I have been working on that. The medication for anxiety/depression isn’t working like it should. I have been taking them since last November.

Okay, enough of all of that. I want to think happy thoughts for a change, and don’t want to sound down when there are others who are going through something as well.

Today, my daughter and I are going shopping, and to see the movie, Morbius. And do whatever else I would like to do. This is the first time in a very long time, I get to do what I want and feel like doing for my birthday. I used to spend it sitting around where I used to live with someone who do not like me leaving the house unless he said so.

Okay, I’m beginning to ramble…

So, also for the weekend, I am catching up on books I haven’t finished reading and new books. And well into next week while I sit in with my mom while she recovers. (It may take several weeks for her recovery though.)

For my birthday, I am doing what I normally do like I do other parts of the year, which is donating to charity. Other than donating money, clothes, and non-perishable, I like that in my area, the money people donate goes to help abused women and children. And help people pay their bills, medications, and such.

And, drum roll, please. Okay, just kidding. Also for my birthday weekend, my ebook, Secrets Unveil will be available for free starting today and up until Wednesday (4/6). So, if you don’t have a copy and would like to get one, now is your chance.

Available at Amazon.

Thank you for reading this post. I hope you have a good rest of your weekend. Stay safe and be well.

Love,

Pamela 🌹

Oh, How The Time Had Flown!


Video by PIRO4D from Pixabay

Oh my goodness! I can’t believe 13 years had flown by just like that. I am officially a mother of a teenager and the feeling is indescribable. The moment she was placed in my arms, so many emotions had ran through I believe I temporarily lost my breath.

Taken by my mom.

My daughter was supposed to be born the next day, (because the doctor was going to induce my labor) but she arrived into the world the night before. She always never did like being told what to do and is still the same way. Lol. She tends to do things on her own time.

I always thought being a mother was hard, and it is but rewarding. I don’t know what I would do or what my life would be like if my daughter wasn’t in it.

She is beautiful, smart, creative, intelligent, sassy, strong, etc, and I am blessed to be chosen as her mother. I wish the best for her, and I thank God for getting us this far.

Omg! I am still overwhelmed about having a teenager. I went through the photo album and had gotten emotional looking through the photos of the years leading up to now. I had truly did my best to be the best mother a child can have because growing up, I didn’t have good mother figures.

To my daughter: I am so proud of you and I wish you all the best life can offer you. Be bold and daring. Be courageous and take life one step at a time. I have much more to teach you, and so do life. Keep at you goals and never give up. I’m crying now, but know how much one can pray for the safety of a child when that child is not around them. I wish you all the love, strength, passion for your dreams to come through, peace, good health, and happiness. I may be missing something but you get it.

So, Happy Birthday, my little queen! Mommy loves you sooooo much! Hugs and kisses. 💗❤️❤️

What Do You Love To Do?


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The work and time authors put into writing their book is a task that is both challenging and rewarding. It’s almost doesn’t feel like work, but it is. Then there’s the reader who gets experienced in the world in which the characters lived. And go on this journey with the characters.

Being an avid reader is something that had done more than give me a place to escape. It is both relaxing and gives me this “book high.”

As I went through the days, weeks, and months of last year, so much had happened that I can’t even begin to list them all. I had gotten away and moved from an abusive ex where the person and environment took toxic to a whole other level. I was sick two months straight and had to force myself to do everything because I felt like a walking zombie.

In a previous post, I spoke about my doctor who doesn’t really do her job like she should. I ended up getting another doctor and was placed on different medications for my blood pressure. And I also ended up on anxiety/depression medicine.

And I also found out why I was always tired and weak– my blood levels for vitamin D were extremely low. I had gone through a few years with my previous doctor and she always claimed to not know why my health was declining. And here comes the new doctor who knew what to do and was able to get my health where it should be.

I can say so many negatives happened last year, but there were some positives too. I confess, my therapist had to actually help me see that.

Doing that 50-books Goodreads challenge last year had helped me a lot in so many ways. I am still glad I did.

When I published my book on January 22, I was happy but also a little sad. A little sad because like I mentioned before it is the month my dad was born. On Saturday, as I’m writing this, a family member and I were talking about my dad. While there are times I still get emotional even though he passed away almost 19 years ago, this person wanted to bring up bad thoughts they harbored about him.

And all I can think about is the weekend I keep trying to get in touch with my dad the weekend he passed away in November 2003. He was very sick and never wanted us to remember him that away. But all I can remember was trying to get in touch with him because I was supposed to move in with him. And since I couldn’t drive at the time, I had to keep finding someone to take me to him.. Come to find out, I was too late. He died alone and was dead for a whole weekend before anyone knew.

Okay, those memories are making me sad again, and I’m glad it is not November.

What I am saying is, no matter what is going on in your life, doing something you love can really help. Other than reading and writing, music, and watching movies are the things that I can solace in.

What about you? What do you find solace in? Or what do you like to do that you find happiness in?

Love and blessings to you.

— Pamela ❤

Book Trailer & Release Date


Good morning/afternoon. After much deliberation with myself, I have decided to release my novel on January 21, 2022. I am a bundle of nerves to the point where my anxiety is grinning like a Cheshire cat from the backseat.

I am sure a lot of authors have felt this way, and along with other emotions for their first time. It doesn’t matter if it’s they’re traditionally published or self-published; the swarming of mixed emotions would still occurred.

Not only have I chosen this month because it’s, well, the first month of the year, but mainly because it is my dad’s birthday month. He was born on January 6th. (May he rest in paradise.) Though he’s not physically here anymore, I still want to honored him in some way. And, I finally was able to buy him a headstone.

I’m not going to get all mushy right now, but this month means so much to me than the month I was born.

Well, I have named one of my characters after my dad and mirrored the behavior of the two. That part was unintentional, and character “spoke” to me to keep going, so there’s that.

The book trailer, (you already know what it is) is to share a visual of the main characters, and so on. While looking back at the video, a thought hit me that I haven’t done an interview with my character, Caitlin like I’ve done with Paris and Trent. Hmm, we shall see.

So, tell us in the comments, what your first time publishing a novel was like? And if you haven’t publish yet, what are your thoughts about doing so and feelings about it?

Thank you for reading, and watching.

— Pamela 💜

Music sample created by: My Daughter

Interview with Paris – Click here

Interview with Trent – Click here

(I don’t own rights to the music. Photos and videos credit: pexels.com, bookbrush.com, and storyblocks.com.)

Final Sample Reading #MondayBlogs


Good morning/afternoon everyone! I hope all is going well with you. The thing with each new year as with any day or month, is to do self-reflection. And to continue to heal parts of me and do any cleansing, whether it’s spiritual, physical, or both, it is needed.

More on that for another post.

I would like to share with you the final sample reading from Secrets Unveil. If you haven’t read the previous sample, you can do so here.

I plan to release the novel this month. I am also still working on the release date and I will keep you updated. I promise.


Chapter 2

“Hey, Paris! Are you coming with us to the store?” A red-haired girl called out to her as she adjusted the straps of her backpack over her shoulders.

Paris’s chestnut eyes took in the two girls she would be studying with and mentally rolled her eyes.

Kayla knew she was supposed to be hanging out with Sean this evening. Still, since he usually likes to cancel out on her, Kayla thought she could save her the trouble by getting her to hang out with friends who enjoy her company.

Standing at five feet, three inches tall with shoulder-length auburn hair, Paris has skin the color of cinnamon and naturally arched eyebrows. Though she likes being around others sometimes, she considers herself a loner.

“Nah, you two go ‘head. I’ll be fine. Sean texted me earlier that he was still coming,” Paris told her. She started walking in the north part of the Science Building and onto the sidewalk from the parking lot. She knows she wasn’t supposed to be standing out by herself because of the school rules. No female student is supposed to be left alone when the sun goes down. And given five minutes, it was getting close for the sun to set.

She knows she wasn’t supposed to be standing out by herself because of the school rules. No female student is supposed to be left alone when the sun goes down. And given five minutes, it was getting close for the sun to set.

“Okay, now, if he doesn’t show up, call or text one of us to come back and get you. Don’t walk like you did last time. The store isn’t that far, but that doesn’t mean you need to do it,” Kayla went on, expressing concern for her.

Paris nodded her head in response, not feeling it. It was pointless, and she felt like it was also fake. An aging security guard was standing nearby, observing the surroundings with his hands on his hips. Oh, I feel so safe, Paris thought sarcastically.

“Trust me, I’m good. Sean can’t possibly be late or a no-show, again!” After the girls said their final farewells, Paris let out a huge sigh and saw that Sean wasn’t waiting for her like he said he would in his black Mustang. With the conversation she just had with Kayla about him, her mind immediately went to the thought that he was running late for sure, or worse, a no-show.

“Don’t do me like this, Sean!” She rummaged hastily through her purse for her Samsung cell phone and cursed.

The phone went black, and when she tried to hit the side button, nothing happened. She was infuriated. How did her cell phone die so quickly? The last time she checked, it was at forty-five percent, and that was the last hour!

She figured she had enough time to make it home to charge it since she left her charger there or could have used Sean’s. Now, she has no idea if he was trying to call her; however, it still doesn’t make any sense why he’s not there right now in the first place!

Paris turned around, fed up with the waiting around. She contemplated using the phone in the school to call him. As soon as Paris spun on her heels to do so, she ended up running smack dab into a tall guy with dreadlocks hanging down inches from his buttocks. She gasps.

This dude is so damn fine; she was mesmerized. Paris tried to remember where she saw him

As soon as Paris spun on her heels to do so, she ended up running smack dab into a tall guy with dreadlocks hanging down inches from his buttocks. She gasps.

This dude is so damn fine; she was mesmerized. Paris tried to remember where she saw him because he looked so familiar, but her brain and mouth failed to work at the moment.

Source: Final Sample Reading