Sometimes, it can be hard to stay positive, especially when there are things going on that may be out of your control. Those things may pull you down into a dark abyss. To me, it takes a lot more than just being positive. We have to be strong and know that every battle is not for us to fight.
We have to do what ever it is to bring ourselves back into the place that brings us stability, light, strength, positivity, etc.
Good morning/afternoon, everyone! I know it has been a little over a month since my last post, but a lot has happened.
For one, I have officially moved into my own place since the end of May. Yep! And it is my first time ever. I am proud of myself for making that move, literally and figuratively. Though others aren’t happy about it at all, I still have to keep going and do what is best for me.
Although most of you may have remembered the things I have gone through in the past that had left me depressed and feeling like my life couldn’t get any worse. I have suffered from all kinds of abuse, and it has gotten me to the point where not only had I lost my identity but my self-respect. I am grateful for being alive and now doing well- mentally, physically; you name it. But, I still have some ways to go. I’m not finishing evolving.
I wanted to share more of my story in hopes it will help others, but like I’m still programmed to do- I’m a little apprehensive of the ones who know me personally in real life who may have something negative to say. Or give their own unnecessary opinions. And worse, the ones who feel it’s their right to gossip to others wanting to make matters worse. The latter is one of the many reasons why I kept some things to myself. Because, even if I feel I could open up to some of you who are caring and understanding, there is a possibility my posts—whether blog posts and social media posts—could fall under the wrong person’s eyes. (I also know that some things you just don’t share, period.)
Then again, I have told myself that I have to STOP the damn people-pleasing because it had gotten me NOwhere at all. There are people who may claim they know you because they are your family member, went to high school or church with you back in the day, or what have you, and don’t know you at all. Most will believe that just because you don’t mention you are going through something, it must not happen to you.
Anyway, I have been going to therapy since 2018; well, I have gone back during that time and still keeping my sessions to this day. It’s something I haven’t mentioned to anyone except my daughter and mom, and therapy has helped me tremendously.
I have learned that to practice self-love, self-respect, and self-care, I have to examine and reexamine my life. The good and bad. And change whatever in my life that is not helping me to move forward positively and productively. I used to look back to the past because of the things that happened; the whys and what-ifs. So whenever I would occasionally look back, it’s to see how far I have come and to learn as much as possible so I won’t make those same mistakes. And to look out for any repeats and red flags.
I won’t crowd everything in today’s post because it will be too long to read. (I will do more posts.) I just want you all to know that I am okay. I had a “scare for my life” thing that happened some weeks ago. Some people refused to let something or someone go because they are stuck on some warped fantasy that you will never leave. Or that that something will get better. Unfortunately, there are people who are only happy if things are going ONLY their way, and that includes your life and everything pertaining you.
In other news, before I go, while brainstorming other stories, I ended up going back to my novel, Secrets Unveil, and I had officially completed it. I am moving towards a professional editor after I finish more self-edits. I’m reworking my Secrets Series page and working on a newsletter and will let you know how that is coming along in the upcoming weeks.
I appreciate you and grateful for you all for hanging in there with me.
Thank you, and I wish everyone the best in life and all their endeavors.
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The mixed emotions I felt heading to a destination known and unknown set a rocky motion of fear and confusion inside me. My heart raced after each mile completed, which set a bundle of nerves taking over me. I fought to keep my breathing in control and my skin felt clammy. I knew that I was getting closer whether I was ready or not.
Good morning/afternoon! I hope you all are well and being safe. With what’s happening with this #covid19 #coronavirus pandemic, I hope that everyone is doing what they can to stay safe and to take precautions; and as I will do the same. One thing though, as I take this pandemic serious and pray for those affected, I am working on not allowing myself to get into the mass hysteria because…well, because I won’t since it will not help any. I need not say more on this because it gives me a headache after seeing memes about it and what people including the political and healthcare officials have to say about it. Hmm.
Below is a poem I would like to share from another writer whose poetry I had came upon on a website. It’s uplifting and filled with positivity. I hope it can help someone. Be strong. Be safe. And do what you can however you can. Do not stress yourself about any of what’s happening since in my country, the United States, it is also election year. 🤔 (I’ll stay quiet on this before I vent.)
Take care. Much love,
This Is A Daily Reminder
By: Nicolette- March 2015
This is a daily reminder To relax, To not get angry over small things, To stay calm.
This is a daily reminder To be yourself, To not care what people think, To know you can be anything.
This is a daily reminder To love yourself, To not hurt yourself, To not work yourself up.
This is a daily reminder That you are beautiful, That you are amazing, That you will succeed.
This is a daily reminder To always have hope, To have faith, To know everything will be okay.
This is a daily reminder That you have made it so far already, That you haven’t given up, That whatever you’re doing is right, And that you are going to be amazing.