I would like to say that though I had constantly took breaks from my blog, I am glad that I hadn’t given up on it and abandon it totally.
It does take work to manage a blog, but with hard work, perseverance, and determination, it will pay off in the end. And there’s still more ways to go, and ideas I want to do with it and so on.
I also want to thank you all so much for being there for me and hanging in there. You have inspired and supported me in ways that I can’t even begin to put into words. Just know that I am grateful and appreciate you all from the bottom of my heart.
For those of you who are starting out, don’t give up. If it gets tough, it’s okay to take breaks. Do what you love and love what you do. Take your time and know it is not a race. Learn, learn, and learn all that you can. It’s your blog and you should want the best for it.
Make it what you want it to be.
Again, thank you loves for all that you do. You’re so wonderful.
My most urgent priority for this year may sound selfish but it is a must that I do it. And that is to start doing more for me. What I am saying that I had always put my wants and needs on the backburner for so long, that I had forgotten about me.
If someone said they needed something or help with something and I had something important to tend to, I would put that aside to help that person. Sometimes, it would be with people who didn’t even care about me or what I needed to do.
I had also neglected my health, and just recently started to do more to take care of myself. I am not surprise that my health start to dwindle when I was close to my thirties. I was severely stress a lot and depressed, so when I started to developed health issues, that was most likely why. Too much stress on the body and mind.
And now, since I am getting close to being forty, I have no choice but to be healthier and stress-free. Also, there is a lot of things I haven’t done in my life yet that I should have done some time ago. I don’t want to go off course and start adding my bucket list, but I’ve learned that if you don’t start living for you, someone else may have you living for them.
I want and need to live a lot, to be and feel free, and put trust in myself and the decisions I make. And to have faith in the Universe that it has my back.
I need to be and do better mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, and financially. If I work on me and continue to do so, I can be a better person, mom, you name it.
So, it is an urgent priority to put myself first and get myself back to life in all ways that I can in a positive and prosperous manner. There’s nothing wrong with helping others (who are deserving), though I have to remember not to forget myself.
What are your most urgent priority for the rest of the year?
When you are someone like me who an extreme music lover, you don’t normally have a personal anthem or theme song; well, you don’t necessarily have one.
I like to think of them as my go-to songs. Songs that speak not only to my heart but my soul. Songs that describe me as closely as any song can. The songs that’ll make you want to dance, the good ole today’s type of songs, because I’m not really feeling today’s music or dance.
And a few of those songs are (and their partial lyrics):
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I’ve waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally
I believe
When you look out in the distance
You see it never was that far
Ohh-no
Heaven knows your existence
And leads you to be everything you are
Ohh
There’s a time for every soul to fly
It’s in the eyes of every child
It’s the hope, the love that saves the world
And, ohh, we should never let it go
I can see it in the stars across the sky (yeah-yeah-yeah)
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I’ve waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart, yeah
Overcome any obstacle
Won’t let this dream fall apart
See, I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe
Now don’t be offended this is all my opinion
Ain’t nothing that I’m saying law
This is a true confession
Of a life learned lesson
I was sent here to share with y’all
So get in when you fit in
Go on and shine
Clear your mind
Now’s the time
Put your salt on the shelf
Go on and love yourself
Cause everything’s gonna be alright
I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India.Arie
Today’s question for March Writing Challenge is: If you could choose your own life obstacles, would you keep the ones you have? Um, my answer to that would be yes and no.
I said yes, I would keep the ones I have because one of my life obstacles is overthinking my goals. I’m afraid of failure and of things not working out the way I would like. Sometimes I feel overthinking is good because I wouldn’t rush into things without giving it a thorough thought.
I also said no because I wouldn’t want to keep limited finances. It is true that money can solve a lot of problems. If I could have more than enough money, it would help out a lot without having to worry about money for bills, food, and such. If there was more than enough money I could have, a shelter for those looking to better their lives for themselves and their children would be a great help. Money for food could be deliver out to or have a building used to hand out boxes and bags of food that a trusted person could monitor and give out to the ones who need it the most.
Life obstacles are something to learn from and overcome, and I like to think I am trying to do just that. Though, at times, obstacles can be a good thing because they make you stronger. Stronger to overcome the obstacles so when new things come up, you’re better equipped to handle them.
Thanks for reading.
If you could choose your own life obstacles, would you keep yours?
There was a teacher who was my 12th grade English teacher who had this knack and love for teaching that went beyond expectations. She really loved her job and made sure no child was left behind.
There was a writing assignment that we were to write and it was to be a fiction piece based on a particular theme that we pulled from a glass bowl. I thought it was fun until it was my turn to pull a paper out from the bowl.
When I looked at the paper, the theme I had pulled was to write a fictional story about someone who woke up and found out it was the end of the world. Now, I know the known writing rule is for you to not start a story about the character waking up, but that was the hardest part. I was NOT to start off with the character waking up even though that’s what the paper said I’ve chosen.
I had three days to write, as do everyone else who had to write a theme based on what they pulled from the bowl. It was difficult for someone like me as a 12th grader who loves writing to have trouble putting the story together. So, the day before I was to turn it in, I buckle down and write and write as the creative juices started to flow effortlessly. When I turned it in the next day, she immediately started reading it. I didn’t know whether to stand and wait or sit and wait. So, I chose to stand and wait.
When she stopped reading and looked up at me with a serious expression, my heart dropped. She slowly took off her glasses and said, “Pamela, I can tell you wrote this story from your heart, but also at the last minute.” I don’t know how she knew that, and I was hurt until she said the next line.
“The story sounds great and is extremely creative, but I can also tell you held back. Don’t be afraid to go there. Go as far as you can go, and keep going. The ending of this story is surprising and really good how the main character thought all of this was happening and to find out it was only a dream…” She was telling me.
When she studied it more and continue to tell me not to hold back and be as unique as I am, I can accomplish a lot more. Though I received a B grade, I truly felt like I have done better than my best until sometimes later I went back to read it and saw what she saw. I could have done better. (I did wrote an essay one year that ended up inside a glass encased bulletin for all to walk by and see.)
I remembered she also said to me that I like to play it safe instead of just going there and not worry what others would think and say. There are days now that I still occasionally think that way and that memory of my 12th grade teacher and that moment will come to the surface and remind me what was said.
