It may seem hard to live in positivity with all the negatives in the world. Stay strong, rise above it all, and know that none of those negatives can bring you down. You got this because you are the co-creator of your own life. Know that God and the Universe has your back.
Whatever you do, most of all, live in love.
Be blessed.
Happy Monday, everyone! How was your weekend?
Today, I have for you is an interview with Paris Thompson. She’s the female main character who has been through a lot of obstacles and had fought to overcome them.
***If you haven’t read Trenton’s interview (Paris’ boyfriend/male main character), please do so by going here.
1. Tell us about yourself, Paris.
Hi everyone! Great to be here. Well, a little about me, I’m a 18-year-old college student majoring in nursing. One sister, no brothers. My parents are divorced. Hmm… what else? I’m currently in therapy for my PTSD. Uh, I had some things in life that threw lemons and dropped rocks on my head. I’m still overcoming the night of my attack, and have nightmares… Can we move on, please?
2. Sure. Do you consider yourself an introvert or extrovert?
I’m an introvert most definitely. I’m far from being a social butterfly. It’s very hard to get me to go out and party; I prefer to sit at home, read and watch movies.
At times, I can be even-tempered, then when something sets me off, I get aggressive, moody, and/or too quiet. I can’t let anything go.
3. If I asked you to write an entry in your journal, what would it be about?
It would be about how I’m progressing every day with therapy, and my views on life.
4. What parts of loving come easy to you?
Parts of? (Frowning) Girl, I don’t know what you mean. As in sex “loving” or loving someone?
(Loving someone, or yourself.) Oh. (Lol.)
Well, what I’ve learned is that you have to first love yourself. I thought I once have. I love every part of myself, inside and out. From my physical features to my whole being- the good and the bad and nurturing myself back to fullness, mentally and spiritually. I’m not beating myself up anymore over things I can’t change.
Loving someone, um..hmm… the closeness for sure. Nothing like feeling like you can bond with someone on some deeper level, and connecting on a higher level. The passion- being fully committed to each other and willing to make it work. It more than just the sexual attraction, which nothing is wrong with that, you got to have more.
Love isn’t easy. I know that now. It’s an unhurried and fulfilling process with the right one. With me and Trent, we’re taking it slow, and rebuilding one day at a time.
5. What can you tell us about yourself that most people, like family for instance, doesn’t know?
I, uh- hmm… I can’t say at the moment. (Looking nervously around, twiddling her thumbs.)
6. Did you have a happy childhood?Why or why not?
My childhood was okay. My parents tried to make it work being married to each other. They get along well now; sometimes I feel like they do it just for my benefit. They love me; I love them dearly, and they have some kind of love still for each other.
I had only one friend my entire life. My childhood is like any other person’s. Can’t really complain. Then again, there are some dark secrets I’m harboring. Don’t ask what they are, because I couldn’t even say them in the last question.
7. What matters the most to you in life?
Pamela, what matters most to me in life is being happy. And being peaceful. You got to have that. I always felt like no matter what you do, it will never be good enough for anybody. I’m just glad I had suportive family who was there for me even when I was too ashamed to tell them what happened to me and all the unthinkable things I’ve done. Family that cares about you matters.
8. What are some of your interests?
(Smiling) My interests are: reading fiction books by Kimberla Lawson Roby, Carl Weber, E. L. James, James Patterson, and Eric Jerome Dickey. They are my faves. There’s nothing like curling up with a good book and dare someone to bother you.
I like volunteering in the community. Right now, I volunteer at my local hospital. I absolutely love helping the elderly and being there for them in their time of need.
I enjoyed watching horror and romance movies, baking, and riding bikes together with my fam.
9. What is your greatest regret?
My biggest regret is meeting this girl named Caitlin. Gosh! I was so stupid for hanging with her when I knew she was bad news. There was signs pointing in every direction, but did I take heed?- no! I kept going around the damn girl because she brought excitement into my life, thrills, the glamorous life.
At times, I was bored because I had nothing else better to do with myself. She was an outlet for me. However, all that led to my boyfriend and me having a strained relationship; I nearly lost him, and I ended up being addicted to sex and drugs. I lost my self-respect and dignity. Oh, yeah, I ended up in a nuthouse. So, yeah, I regretted meeting HER!
10. If you could change anything about your life, what would it be?
Basically what I’ve mentioned for the last question. So, I would changed my vulnerability towards the people I meet. I would change my ability to be more focus when times get tough; especially when last year upon meeting Caitlin, I felt abandoned or neglected by those I love. She used that time of weakness to prey on me. I want to change to being a MUCH better me, one day at a time.
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This concludes my interview with Paris. Thank you, Paris!
I hope to you all that this interview helps give you a clear understanding on who Paris is and what she shared with us today. Her life was distressing at times, but worth writing about, because I felt empathy towards her struggles, trials, and determination to turned her life around.
As for the part 2 of Trent’s interview, I’m still waiting for a response on when he is available since our interview was previously cut short and he had more to share with us.
Thank you for stopping by and reading!
©2016 Pamela E. Hester
There is something so relaxing and beautiful about the sounds of water; whether it be a stream, waterfall, lake, or ocean. It can even be the sounds of water running into the tub.
Some years ago, I was feeling emotional about and I came upon a river. There was water rushing as it came onto some rocks, separated into two paths, and ran down a what was below. As I stopped and observed, I listened to those sounds. It began to relax me and made me feel like my problems were “washing” away with the stream.
And from then on I would occasionally used the sounds of water as a way to meditate, relax, and let whatever that is going on inside me to be “wash” away. Of course there are ways to use water as in submerging your body into the water and let that be a way to spiritually rid yourself of anything you may want to rid yourself of.
When I’m not able to get to a body of water and listen to the sounds of it running, other than from the shower or bath, I play sounds of water moving and sounds of rain on YouTube videos.
What do you think about the sounds of water? Have you ever used it in any way? Let us know.
Thanks for reading.
Below, is a video from YouTube called Relaxing Zen Music with Water Sounds, by Soothing Relaxation.
I would like to say that though I had constantly took breaks from my blog, I am glad that I hadn’t given up on it and abandon it totally.
It does take work to manage a blog, but with hard work, perseverance, and determination, it will pay off in the end. And there’s still more ways to go, and ideas I want to do with it and so on.
I also want to thank you all so much for being there for me and hanging in there. You have inspired and supported me in ways that I can’t even begin to put into words. Just know that I am grateful and appreciate you all from the bottom of my heart.
For those of you who are starting out, don’t give up. If it gets tough, it’s okay to take breaks. Do what you love and love what you do. Take your time and know it is not a race. Learn, learn, and learn all that you can. It’s your blog and you should want the best for it.
Make it what you want it to be.
Again, thank you loves for all that you do. You’re so wonderful.
Much love,
Pamela
Xx💜💜
My most urgent priority for this year may sound selfish but it is a must that I do it. And that is to start doing more for me. What I am saying that I had always put my wants and needs on the backburner for so long, that I had forgotten about me.
If someone said they needed something or help with something and I had something important to tend to, I would put that aside to help that person. Sometimes, it would be with people who didn’t even care about me or what I needed to do.
I had also neglected my health, and just recently started to do more to take care of myself. I am not surprise that my health start to dwindle when I was close to my thirties. I was severely stress a lot and depressed, so when I started to developed health issues, that was most likely why. Too much stress on the body and mind.
And now, since I am getting close to being forty, I have no choice but to be healthier and stress-free. Also, there is a lot of things I haven’t done in my life yet that I should have done some time ago. I don’t want to go off course and start adding my bucket list, but I’ve learned that if you don’t start living for you, someone else may have you living for them.
I want and need to live a lot, to be and feel free, and put trust in myself and the decisions I make. And to have faith in the Universe that it has my back.
I need to be and do better mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, and financially. If I work on me and continue to do so, I can be a better person, mom, you name it.
So, it is an urgent priority to put myself first and get myself back to life in all ways that I can in a positive and prosperous manner. There’s nothing wrong with helping others (who are deserving), though I have to remember not to forget myself.
What are your most urgent priority for the rest of the year?
Thanks for reading.
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