March Writing Challenge- Day 2: Do I Have Any Irrational Fears?


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Hmm. When I think about fears, the first thing that comes to mind is the emotional reaction to them and believing those fears will cause harm. Silly, right?

Since I was a little girl I had always feared being in confined spaces and I still do. Claustrophobia is a serious issue for me and over the years I have learned to cope with that fear, not so successfully, I might add. Being in an elevator or walking in a narrow hallway isn’t fun for me. And especially if there are people on the elevator or someone walking in the halls at the same time as me and we have to pass each other.

I hate the feeling of my heart racing and my breathing hitched. The thought of having the walls of a room or area I’m in closing up on me causes me anxiety. I don’t know how I became this way, but I know that I had always been in homes and most places that are considered small in size to me whereas it might not be to others. It’s not by choice that I live in areas like that because I had lived with others and that was how it was.

I supposed living in those areas helps somewhat, but there are times when I have to envision myself in a wide-open space just to cope with it. And not only with spaces, standing or sitting too close to people when I have no choice but to or them to me, is nerve-wracking but you get the picture.

So, the fear of confined and small spaces/places are one of the many fears I have. I deal with them on my own and have learned to watch my anxiety and not panic.

Thanks for reading, and stay tuned for Day 3.

Do you have irrational fears you would like to share with us?

And join in on the writing challenge with us if you like.

Writing Challenge (Day 19)-Fears


Fears.

It can teach us a lesson. And, it can paralyze us if we allow it.

I prefer that we acknowledge our fears and learn from them.

In today’s writing challenge I want to share five fears of mine. Yes, I said five, and I had to go deep into the recesses of my brain to recalled them. As I collected them, I realized the weird, profound fears I’ve tried so hard to bank- in the dark. So, here go:

  • Future- I am afraid of the future. I fear not knowing what it may bring and if I will be prepare for it.
  • Rejection- Whenever I work up the nerve to send something off: letter, email, or an application, no matter how much effort I put into it I won’t send it. Rejection has been one of my major fears and it had a setback in my life. Sometimes, I can’t move forward because I’m afraid of someone rejecting me for a job or anything. I feel like it saves me the heartache.
  • Enclosed spaces- I am too afraid of being closed up in tight spaces. I don’t even want to think about it right now.
  • Public speaking- I fear this so much that I actually get choke up. The thing is I have a speech impairment. As a child I used to stutter. It was awful and I was teased a lot. I also speak  faster than I should. My childhood had consisted of speech therapy after another and more bullying. It had helped to the point I no longer stuttered but I now have a lazy tongue. Yeah, that’s the sad truth. So, public speaking is out of the question. No one would understand what I’m saying. Besides, I’m working on enunciating my words properly, slowly down when talking with my lazy tongue.
  • Love- Yes, I do fear it. If you have figured me out by reading my posts, then you may understand why. I really don’t want to dwell for you get the point. Love has given me many reasons why I should. Yet, I like to see love in others, I just fear love for myself.

this concludes today’s challenge. You have gotten a glance into my weirdness. Stay tuned for more. I can only imagine what’s next.