March Writing Challenge- Day 26: Would You Consider Yourself An Introvert, Extrovert, Or Ambivert?

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Just in case you might not know already, I consider myself an introvert. Yes, I know, shocking isn’t it. 😀

I have been an introvert my entire life. I love being by myself and get overwhelmed being around so many people, unless they are people I can connect with. At one point I thought maybe I was ambivert, then when I checked my surroundings, I had noticed it was people who are authentic and on the same level as me.

So, I believe—I am sure that I am just an introvert. Sometimes, I get awkward when I first meet them. Then, when I get to know them, then I can decide whether this person is someone I can be around or not. And if they choose not to be around me, then that’s okay too.

There was a time (or two) I was sitting at home in my own little world, and the person I was living with went to a family cookout that was across the street. One of their relatives walked over to ask me why didn’t I come over and kept trying to convince me I would have a good time. And every time I would tell them that I was okay and wanted to be by myself. Whether they thought it was weird of not, was their problem, but the person I was living with did bring me over a plate a food over. And kept saying how everyone wanted me to come over.

I always felt content being in my company, and I now choose wisely who I let into my space. I don’t like not being myself around people. And if I feel like I have to be anything else, then I can’t be around them.

I don’t care to stand in front of people to talk. I rather write it down and let them read it. I don’t like when people try to put me under a microscope to see what is wrong me. I am just like this. I can go out and be around people even though I don’t like crowds, but it doesn’t bother me too much. But, I don’t want to hang out with a group if I don’t have to, so I don’t see how these Real Housewives of these cities do it.

Are you an introvert, extrovert, or ambivert?

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March Writing Challenge- Day 25: Where And When Do You Get Your Best Ideas?

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I don’t know when I would get my ideas unless you count “at the strangest times.”

I normally get them, for writing, listening to music while sitting on couch after work or days I’m not working while letting the TV watch me. I had always said there was something therapeutic about music and the way it makes me feel. I can sometimes feel the creative juices flowing as I feel this jolt of energy coursing through me. Or when I’m watching a movie trailer or a movie itself.

Oftentimes, crystals and stones help center me and helps with the spiritual aspects of things. But, there are times I can be doing nothing at all and a scene or idea of sorts would pop up in my mind.

I’m sure this may happen to others, but I tried to have something to write those ideas down because they can pop up one minute and disappear the next.

When and where do you get your best ideas?

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March Writing Challenge- Day 24: When You See Peers/Competitors Getting Things You Want, How Do You React?

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In the past, I would react badly to someone getting something that I wanted. Back then, it was mostly a job I had applied for and gave it my best, and then you to have someone I know to get that particular job position. It didn’t help that this person was always in competition with me, but they always got what they wanted.

It was during the time of my life when I was grieving the loss of my dad and wanted to do something with myself, and every job I applied for this person would get. They would constantly quit and get another while I couldn’t get a decent one other than a temp plant job.

I thought maybe I wasn’t applying myself more so I tried harder. That didn’t work. I never gotten whatever I wanted in life. Thinking about it, maybe I never had so I don’t what it feels like to have what I want. I had to take whatever “life” gives me, then and now. All in all, I was happy to see that person and anyone accomplished or gotten what they wanted. Even if I do put myself last and think about others first.

Anyway, I had grown to learn that maybe it wasn’t my time, or my season, and things will work itself out for the good. Though, it did hurt on many occasions whenever I had worked my butt off for whatever it is I wanted (or needed) and to find out someone else got it. Or the company/person turned me down for the job, proposal, etc.

So I’ve learned not to belittle myself, and to continue to be happy for others. My apologies if I sounded like I was complaining. I just wish the best for everyone, but for myself as well.

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March Writing Challenge- Day 23: What’s Your Recipe For Recuperating From Extreme Heartbreak?

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I don’t know if I can call it a recipe, but whenever I had dealt with a heartbreak in the past, it didn’t go well. I would wallow while talking about how the person had done me wrong (but saying it to myself.)

It is not so easy to get over a heartbreak, well, depends on if you had cared about the person, and/or wanted the relationship to end. I tend to do more of listening to music while trying to avoid love songs. Deleting any reminders of the person and calling them a damn fool and some other choice words out loud. Or in my head if there are people around me. Okay, maybe that’s not a good thing.

I used to eat sweets more and listen to more music. I also learned years ago that it is a good thing to write down the bad things on paper and then burn it. It’s like releasing it into the Universe, letting go of the bad.

Finding other things to do instead of thinking about the person and what went wrong. Doing things that are healthy, like doing fun activities, read and read.

Get underneath someone else. Okay, I didn’t do that. And you shouldn’t either until you are ready, (or unless you just want to.) One thing I have learned now just thinking about it, and that is to never wallow in your sorrows for so long that you forget to live.

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March Writing Challenge- Day 22: What’s Your Personal Anthem Or Theme Song?

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When you are someone like me who an extreme music lover, you don’t normally have a personal anthem or theme song; well, you don’t necessarily have one.

I like to think of them as my go-to songs. Songs that speak not only to my heart but my soul. Songs that describe me as closely as any song can. The songs that’ll make you want to dance, the good ole today’s type of songs, because I’m not really feeling today’s music or dance.

And a few of those songs are (and their partial lyrics):

1.Fantasia- I Believe

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I’ve waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally
I believe
When you look out in the distance
You see it never was that far
Ohh-no
Heaven knows your existence
And leads you to be everything you are
Ohh
There’s a time for every soul to fly
It’s in the eyes of every child
It’s the hope, the love that saves the world
And, ohh, we should never let it go
I can see it in the stars across the sky (yeah-yeah-yeah)
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I’ve waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart, yeah
Overcome any obstacle
Won’t let this dream fall apart
See, I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe

—Written by: Sam Watters, Tamyra Gray & Louis Biancaniello, 2005

  1. Lenny Kravitz- Fly Away
I wish that I could fly
Into the sky
So very high
Just like a dragonfly
I’d fly above the trees
Over the seas in all degrees
To anywhere I please, oh
I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Let’s go and see the stars
The Milky Way or even Mars
Where it could just be ours
Let’s fade into the sun
Let your spirit fly
Where we are one
Just for a little fun
Oh, oh, oh yeah…
——Lenny A. Kravitz, 1998
3. Madonna- Human Nature
Express yourself don’t repress yourself
Express yourself don’t repress yourself
—Madonna, 1995
 
4. India Arie- Video
Now don’t be offended this is all my opinion
Ain’t nothing that I’m saying law
This is a true confession
Of a life learned lesson
I was sent here to share with y’all
So get in when you fit in
Go on and shine
Clear your mind
Now’s the time
Put your salt on the shelf
Go on and love yourself
Cause everything’s gonna be alright
I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India.Arie
What is your personal anthem or theme song(s)?
Thanks for reading!