It had never occurred to me that you can go through life with someone for so many years and still not know them. Most people put on masks for whom they like to portrayed for that moment, and leave you in utter shock at the fact that they’d manipulated, betrayed you for so long. They will make themselves out to be the victim when all along they played you like a used up fiddle.
Have you ever been to the point where you just want to throw your hands up and say, F**k it! I’m tired of fighting and redeeming myself loyal and worthy.”?
When you had dealt with a person you thought you can trust, and they turned around and done the unthinkable, you lose a part of you every day. To the point where if you go to an authority figure, that person can be persecuted. Like a good hearted person, you want to give them a chance. But, how many chances can you give them time after exhausting time?
When does the mask comes off? Who are they really? Love shouldn’t have to be so hard.
Your heart is bleeding. You are fighting your way out of a dark tunnel- to a light that shines bright to another day. Your soul can’t go on any longer. Where is the peace? When and how can you lift yourself up to remove yourself out of a tangled web you didn’t weave to begin with?
Until we meet again,